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One year

Today marks my one year at FiveStars.

On January 8th, 2012, I started to work at the San Francisco Bay Area based startup company. As a retrospect, the decision to join the company was a major turning point of my life. It has been a tremendous year for me. I think it's worth writing down how I landed on FiveStars, and how things evolved since then. It will have to be broken down to a couple or a few posts. Here we go:

On November 12, 2010, I searched for a conversational scene from the movie Taxi Driver on YouTube, and watched many times...as I was probably sighing deeply. The scene goes like this:

Travis: Well, I know you and I ain't talked too much, you know, but I figured you've been around a lot so you could...
Wizard: Shoot. That's why they call me the Wizard.
Travis: I got, it's just that I got a, I got a...
Wizard: Things uh, things got ya down?
Travis: Yeah.
Wizard: Yeah, it happens to the best of us.
Travis: Yeah, I got me a real down, real...I just wanna go out and, and you know like really, really, really do somethin'.
Wizard: The taxi life you mean?
Travis: Yeah, well. Naw, I don't know. I just wanna go out. I really, you know, I really wanna, I got some bad ideas in my head, I just...
Wizard: Look, look at it this way, you know uh, a man, a man takes a job, you know, and that job, I mean like that, and that it becomes what he is. You know like uh, you do a thing and that's what you are. Like I've been a, I've been a cabbie for seventeen years, ten years at night and I still don't own my own cab. You know why? 'Cause I don't want to. I must be what I, what I want. You know, to be on the night shift drivin' somebody else's cab. Understand? You, you, you become, you get a job, you you become the job. One guy lives in Brooklyn, one guy lives in Sutton Place, you get a lawyer, another guy's a doctor, another guy dies, another guy gets well, and you know, people are born. I envy you your youth. Go out and get laid. Get drunk, you know, do anything. 'Cause you got no choice anyway. I mean we're all fucked, more or less you know.
Travis: Yeah, I don't know. That's about the dumbest thing I ever heard.
Wizard: I'm not Bertrand Russell. Well what do ya want. I'm a cabbie you know. What do I know? I mean, I don't even know what the fuck you're talkin' about.
Travis: Yeah I don't know. Maybe I don't know either.
Wizard: Don't worry so much. Relax Killer, you're gonna be all right. I know I seen a lot of people and uh, I know.
Travis: OK. Thanks. I guess...yeah
Wizard: Yeah, you know. You are alright. You are alright.
Yes. After finishing the graduate school, moved out of the academia, worked at a huge corporate for 3 years and a few months, I really wanted to go out, and really, really do something. The fact that one of the closest colleagues recently left the company for a new job was just fueling my impatience ...just like that young Travis. When I mentioned about this scene on Twitter, a wise owl tweeted back saying,
"When you can relate a lot to what he says, it may be the time for re-set."
It took more than one year before I could really make it happen. The urge for moving on surfaced on my mind time to time, but it was not until one of my best friends took a foreign assignment and went out of country that I heard something clicked in my brain. My wife and I started to seriously think moving on for something and somewhere new. We started to search.

About 4 months later, my wife got a job in San Francisco Bay Area, and we moved from Houston to Mountain View in October of 2011. I was still working for the same company remotely, but I told my manager that I was going to be quitting by the end of the year.

I did not have a place to go yet...

Original post: Jan. 9, 2013 | Last updated: Jan. 9, 2013

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